Sunday, January 22, 2012

Jangan Bersedih Wahai Hati.

Assalammualaikum,

It's been a pleasure for me and Akak to have you dear. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui setiap sesuatu. Alhamdulillah kerana meminjamkan Bubu walau untuk sekejap. I must admit. The moment she entered into our house, was the best moment of all. I've never been soo deeply hurt, heart-break and attached to something like this. Subhanallah. It feels like I've lost everything in my life. Perasaan yang sama ketika saya putus cinta dengan my so-called first love. Dada sesak. I barely breathe. I can't eat without having this feeling inside. Rasa nak muntah. I can't sleep. I can't do anything without thinking of her. Sesungguhnya she is not just a cat. She is our baby.

Yesterday, I must admit that I've acted as if tak ada iman dalam dada. I've cried out loud, in public. All the families were shocked. The engagement kenduri was supposed to be the most memorable happy moment untuk dikenang turned out to be the most saddest day in my life. I'm so sorry cousin. For ruining your day.

Mak and bapak freaking shocked! Bapak bought a Persian worth hundreds to cool me down. Hoping that by replacing Bubu will take away the pain in me. I'm sorry bapak. I can't have it. Biar abang yang jaga.

Betapa terketarnya tangan untuk mendial no telefon Akak, to tell her that our baby has gone. Ya Allah, I am so sorry for everything. This I admit. All the blame must goes to me.

Then, when I thought that my family semua dah tak berapa sayang kat I, I got hugged from mak, bapak, kakak, Najla. They've tried so hard to stop my tears. I got my little strength back. But to hear Akak's voice crying back there, I felt helpless. Kak, aku mintak maaf sangat2 kat hg. Kat Mija. I am truly sorry sebab tak jaga Bubu baik2.

3.30 pm. Time ni time Bubu mintak makanan. Terketar-ketar. Ya Allah. Tolonglah kuatkan hati hamba-hambaMu ini. Now I understand why lately I rasa tak sedap hati, sayup, sebak. Bubu sangat suka bila mengaji. She will sleep beside me during mengaji and wakes up once I finished. Sesungguhnya, Allah sayangkan beliau lebih dari kami dapat berikan kasih sayang kepada beliau. Redha. Yes! Kita mesti redha! Ni kan ujian. Semuanya pinjaman. Bila cukup time, kita kenalah pulangkan kepada Tuan Empunya. Mana boleh buat harta sendiri. =)



MasyaAllah. Well-versed. 



p/s : Bubu. You will be missed.
p/s/s : For those who keep on saying that chill ah, it is just a cat. Well listen here people. Bubu is not just a cat! She is our baby!


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1 comments:

akak said...

last time i will be the kinda of those people...but bubu did changed everything..syukur to Allah for a wonderful gift..yet she just been a while..but worth my entire life...my first deari baby(mummy...x mo jd mak tiri bley..tukar title)...i will let my next future child know how wonderfull u were..n they surely love u as much as i do..n u will be rememberred untill the death come apart...n insyaAllah we will meet there dear...insyaAllah..wait for mummy n ibu ye...Ya Allah syukran...